Seek Not My Heart….

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , on October 17, 2009 by mikayla1

Seek Not My Heart

by Kit McCallum

 

Oh gentle winds ‘neath moonlit skies,
Do not you hear my heartfelt cries?

Below the branches, here about,
Do not you sense my fear and doubt?
Side glistening rivers, sparkling streams,
Do not you hear my woeful screams?

Upon the meadows, touched with dew,
Do not you see my hearts a’skew?
Beneath the thousand twinkling stars,
Do not you feel my jagged scars?

Seek not my mournful heart kind breeze,
For you’ll not find it ‘mongst these trees.

It’s scattered ‘cross the moonlit skies,
Accompanied by heartfelt sighs.
It’s drifting o’re the gentle rain,
A symbol of my silent pain.

It’s buried ‘neath the meadow fair,
Conjoined with all the sorrow there.
It’s lost among the stars this night,
Too far to ease my quiet fright.

No gentle winds, seek not my heart,
For simply … it has torn apart.

Update….

Posted in Uncategorized with tags on October 13, 2009 by mikayla1

Thanks to all my blogging buds for the kind emails and messages of concern.  I know my last post was very ‘gloom and doom’ and had many of you concerned.  I am here to tell you that I am F I N E!

While I can not really decipher the cryptic nature of my last post for obvious reasons, I can say that I made a decision, I changed that decision, then I made a new decision, and now Iam happy.  Does that clear it all up?  Hope so. 

Let’s just chalk it up to a lesson learned.  I need to be less impulsive, think more, make more rational decisions with my head and not so much with my heart.  I need to remember to not lose myself in things or people.  I need to remember that I am a strong, desirable, sexual, sensual, witty, smart, worthwhile woman and that I can control my destiny – I don’t have to wait for anyone else to tell me what that is.

So, look forward to some more sex talk in the next few days, cause Mikayla is back to her right brain – and her right brain is horny as usual!

Thannks again everyone – you know who you are!

Ohhh, spank me…I forgot to Sugasm…

Posted in Uncategorized with tags on September 18, 2009 by mikayla1

The best of this week’s blogs by the bloggers who blog them. Highlighting the top 3 posts as chosen by Sugasm participants. Want in Sugasm #173? Submit a link to your best post of the week using this form. Participants, repost the link list within a week and you’re all set.

This Week’s Picks
A Hot Fuck in a Parking Lot
“We got more daring and soon clothes were a hindrance to our insistent hands.”

I Think I’d Rather Misbehave
“I bet the secret thrill of this has your cock already climbing to attention.”

The Painter
“He says something, small talk, and I stutter something back, lost in the blue depths of his eyes.”

Sugasm Editor
Strildo?

Editor’s Choice
Yet Another Reason You Should Buy a Vibrator

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Erotic Poetry
Enigmatic dance
Loved It.

Erotic Writing & Experiences
24 Hours To Cum
Be Careful What You Wish For…
Desire
Embarrassed, Amused and Turned On
Helping Hand
HNT 4 (and a savoury story)
Masturbation Madness
Mornings…
A much needed fucking…
Now She’s Giving The Orders
Shopping Day
This is Lolita on drugs (2)
This Is My Remedy
The Year 39 Update
You don’t want biographical info. I know what you REALLY want.

Sex Advice
Anal Play: Fingering
Brush Up Your Orgasm
Shay’s Condom Tips

NSFW Pics, Videos & Audio
Burns of punishment
Famosas azotables
Fit to be Tied
Free Heidi Montag Playboy Pictures – September 2009
Learning the lesson…
Naked and Caned

BDSM & Fetish
4 Scenes
Collar, Cuffs And Clamps
Driven by lust….
Honey Pass Me the Nut Cracker
The Negress Natters: Submission.
The perfect body for three-minute porn

Sex Humor
How Many Licks?

Thoughts on Sex & Relationships
The Confession…Coming Soon
Half-Nekkid Heavenly Body
In Search of…. my Clitoris
Is this the dark side of porn?
(Mis)Adventures In Dating: Do You Know Who I Am?
Nonstop Orgasms – HER Perspective

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Confused???

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , on September 14, 2009 by mikayla1

Have you ever been in a situation when you really, truly did not know what to do?  A situation that pulls on your heart strings and just makes the whole world – S T O P?  Where you can think of nothing else but this situation?  That is my life right now.  I am utterly and completely confused – AND – I am utterly and completely alone in my thoughts on this situation.

I have an important decision to make – and I am not sure how I am going to make it.  Actually, I sort of already made it.  This decision will change my life, in a manner of speaking, as well as hurt me severely.  I do not know how I am going to make this decision without hurting someone.

I know, so cryptic.  For those of you who read my blog for all the sexy recaps – I am sorry – but I have to rant somewhere besides in my own head.  I can not elude too much here in full focus, but if I know what I am talking about, then it will help me.  I am sure I will begin to recap the sexcapades of me and my hb some time in the near future – but for now, I just can’t wrap my mind around sexy banter.

Real life is invading me right now.  Real issues.  Real pain. Real hurt. I am not sure what to do.  I wish I could post exactly what my issue is – but I can not.  I wish I could solicit the help of my nearest and dearest friends – but I cannot.  I wish I could confide in someone who would say, ‘Mikayla, it will be OK, you are doing the right thing,‘ but I cannot.    No one would understand this pain – this ache – unless they, themselves were in the situation.

How do we, in this life, delibrately hurt ourselves? Why do we go through life letting people get close to us, just to have it end badly?  Why do friends betray us?  Why do lovers dissapoint us?  Why do people act one way; then stab us in the back?  Why? 

I know, life is full of heartache or it isn’t worth living, right?  What if….what if I have had enough?  What if I have had my share of nasty, bad, senseless pain?  What if all I want is some God Damned happiness?  What if I just want authenticity in my life?  What if I just want it all to STOP?

Why feel secure and then take that security away?  Why feel loved then take that love away?  I am filled with the dissapointments of life at the moment and I just have to try and work it out in my head – and unfortunately, in my head right now is no place for visitors…..

I know this pain will end.  I know I will be OK.  I am strong.  I am determined.  I will be OK.  However, for now…in this moment, I just feel lost.

PAIN

Posted in Uncategorized with tags on August 20, 2009 by mikayla1

Pleasure

Ache

Intense

Need

Mind Candy

Posted in Uncategorized with tags on August 16, 2009 by mikayla1

Mind Candy

 

Totally consuming in my mind’s eye,

Infinite in possibility – stars in the sky.

More so tempting than the sweetest treat,

Giving it up – no small feat.

Deliciously fulfilling -yet,  I want more,

Heat within me rising from the core.

Intoxicating me with each word I read,

Drinking it in with addictive need.

Hot desire replaces sensible thought,

Emotional feelings -  words have brought.

My Bugaboo owns me now,

Can’t rationalize - why or how.

Love is such an inadequate name,

Surely this is not the same.

Conscious thoughts - irrational action,

Will I ever find satisfaction?

More and more and more I crave,

Rushes of pleasure -  pain - a wave.

Breathing hard – can’t catch my breath,

Quiver, shake, release - the mini-death.

Anxiously awaiting –  a future to unwind,

Addicted to this candy of the mind.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Masturbation Madness

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , on August 11, 2009 by mikayla1

Hello blogging world!  Life has slowed down just enough that I can recount for my interested readers last night’s sexual festivities!  My hubby and I have been going through a weeeee bit of a funk.  Not a drought.  A funk.  This means that we have been on sort of different sexual pages as of late.  For example, I may want a quick fuck in the morning; he may want a longer jaunt in the evening.  Or, I may want some bondage and he may want to ‘make love.’  Just  a little diconnection funk.

Well, I am happy to report that last night the FUNK was OV-A [over, for you phoenetically challenged]!

Our evening began in the afternoon with a few saucy phone calls.  You know the ones of which I speak. 

 

“Hey baby, we gonna fuck tonight?”

“Hell yeah we are, I can’t wait!”

“Im gonna make you scream and fill you with cum!”

“Ohhhh, I like the sound of that.”

So on, and so forth.  Followed by a lot of tit and ass grabbing, some nasty thoughts spoken into my ear during outside playtime for the kiddos, and then, of course, the main event.

We retire to our bedroom, the candles already lit and the lube and toys already out.  My hubby is lying on the bed and says, ’strip.’ 

I like the way this is going and strip to panties and thong.

“All of it.”

Ok, so now I am wet and he hasn’t even touched me.

“Lie down.  Spread your legs.  Now, masturbate for me!”

[side note:  this is an activity that we have done before in the past, but not for a very, very long time.  He knows how much it excites me to excite him by exciting myself (hey, it works) ]

So, I do as instructed.  I take my time.  I start with my nipples.  Quick flicks to my nipples.  Pulling my breasts up and jiggling them.  Running my hands over myself.  Then, I move down.  I take my time.  I do it like I did it before toys.  I do it like it is the first time.  Pulling on my lips, spreading myself and runnng a finger up and down my wet slit.  I pet my kitty and make myself purrrrr.

Inserting a finger, I am now in complete bliss.  Feeling the pleasure of self-touch, my clit is at attention.  I close my eyes and lay flat, just enjoying the sensations as he watches, silently, from between my legs.  I am getting close to orgasm now.  The heat from my pussy is amazing.  My legs are spread and I use my left hand to spread myself open and touch my clit with fast, circular motions.

“I love to watch you touch that pussy.  Cum for me and I will fuck you,” comes a hushed whisper.

With just those words, I begin to thrust 2 fingers into my wet and waiting cunt and the orgasm rips over me.  I feel his hands, lips and mouth on me.  Opening my legs back far and wide he drinks in the cum that is oozing freeling from my pussy.  I am in a complete state of happiness and fantasy; he brings me expertly to more orgasms – my pussy tight with contraction and his fingers searching the inner reaches for my g-spot!

Fingers inside, my hips bucking against him, his naughty words muffled between my legs – he finds my spot and in seconds I am gushing sweet wetness onto his face and all over my sheets!

Still in G-spot bliss, he quickly tosses me over and enters me from behind in a quick, deep, thrust!  My g-spot oragsm continues to rage on and his cock is quickly soaked in my cum!

“Fuck you are tight Mikayla, that pussy is so fucking tight on my cock,” he moans, grabbing my hips and pulling me onto him.

I am completely controlled by him.  I am his wet little whore, eagerly pushing my ass back into him trying to get him deeper and deeper!  I reach back and grab his balls – tight with the pre-orgasm impending cum – and I hear him gasp as I pull down.  I let go of him only to start fingering my pussy wildly – trying to get a clitoral orgasm with my next g-spot!  I am so horny and my pussy is so tight that I can literally feel every inch of his throbbing manhood entering me!  When he gets to the head I can feel the ridges of his cockhead almost exiting me – so I push back onto him.  My orgasms are coming so hard and fast that I feel weak in the knees!

He pulls me up by my hair, kissing my neck.  My back arched and my tits taught!  I am rising up to meet his thrusts – practically sitting atop his cock now.  My right hand still feverishly fingering myself!  I hear the toy before I feel it – my hubby deftly gets my bullet and places it on my clit.  BINGO – I cum in a fever of cum and wetness and tightness!

This does him in – he quickens his pace, pushes my face into the pillow and fucks the living cum out of my pussy before exploding deep within me in hot, urgent, release!  He continues to pound away until I have 2 more orgasms and he is finally becoming limp. 

We fold ourselves into post-coital bliss – wet, weak, aching, tired – but fully satisfied!

It was awesome!  It was connected.  It was needed.  It was FANTASTIC!

Masturbation madness let to the best fuck I have had in a while.

XOXO to my hubby for knowing EXACTLY what I needed!

Multiple Sugasms…..

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , on August 6, 2009 by mikayla1

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The best of this week’s blogs by the bloggers who blog them. Highlighting the top 3 posts as chosen by Sugasm participants. Want in Sugasm #171? Submit a link to your best post of the week using this form. Participants, repost the link list within a week and you’re all set.

This Week’s Picks
The fundamental things apply…
“If you can’t fuck me with your mouth, how are you going to handle fucking all of me at once?”

Perfection
“Patiently, he took his time touching me here and there.”

The Study Date (Sugarbutch Star: Green-Eyed Girl)
“I bet she’s already wet.”

Sugasm Editor
Wardrobe Malfunction

Editor’s Choice
3a.m. Vulnerability

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Erotic Writing & Experiences
Adventures in Swingland
Cum Dump
A First Lesson
Getting Her in the Mood and the Violet Panties
Great Blowjob in the Tub
A Honey Dream Come True
Making Magic
Object of Desire
Parker Chase
Satisfaction
Slick
Tease.
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Bijou | Bootsie
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Hard Caning Pictures
HNT – July 23rd, 2009
Jessica Simpson Poking Nipples at Golf with Tiger Woods
Panty Photo for Adult Women
Sunlight Follows Me

Sex Work
Kyra’s Chysalis

BDSM & Fetish
BDSM Toy Review: Scott Paul Humiliator Gag
Dear #16
Fear
Needles
Never Caned Before
Never Too Much
Not-So-Vanilla
Paddling – Must be happen
The Poolbou’s Education, Pt. 1
Rack scenes
Seriously?
Urgency

Sex Humor
Some Coke and A Smile
Vibrator Perspective. Confession #305

Thoughts on Sex and Relationships
Chemistry
Damp Down Under
Why No, It’s Not LBD

The Whipping Post

Posted in Uncategorized on August 1, 2009 by mikayla1

Ok, Ok…don’t get TOO excited guys, this is going to be a short, introspective (or is it retrospective?) post about the joys of a little slap on the ass…..and not MY ass!

Anyone who visits my blog on a regular basis knows that I am a SPANKING WHORE!  I love a light – or not so light – spanking on my ass and pussy.  It is, for me, wonderfully stimulating!  My husband is a willing ’spank-her’ to my ’spank-ee’ – but he has never been one to enjoy a little spank himself!

So, color me surprised when after dinner tonight I gave him a few playful snaps of a towel after he snapped a spatula on my ass and he sported a hard on!  Yep, he came behind me and exclaimed, ‘that little ass spank gave me a woodie!”

WHOA – HOLD THE PHONE HERE!!!!

Do you mean to tell me that my husband likes a little spanky-spank?  Hmmm, this is an important development as imagine the fun Mistress Mikayla could have if she took a more dominant role (or stayed submissive and simply did as told) and gave my hubby some light ass attentions?  I mean, he already likes his cock to be thumped on a bit….add in some spankings and our dynamic could change completely!

Color me a happy Mikayla….very happy indeed!  ;)

Cum Dump

Posted in Uncategorized on July 12, 2009 by mikayla1

My hubby and I have been having a lot of sex lately – A LOT of sex.  We have had quickie sex, long sessions, BDSM sessions – you name it, lately we have had it.   Well, you would think that having all this sex would make his sperm a little less…..volumous, wouldn’t you?  No chance.

Last night we settled in for a nice session.  We began with me on my stomach, he was caressing my ass, legs and pussy.  My legs began to spread farther apart by the minute, and soon I found myself on all fours, getting finger-fucked masterfully by my hubby!  He has this fantastic ability to make me act like a cum-hungry slut!  He gets me to buck my ass back against him, spread my legs, hump his fingers, moan, talk dirty.  I go crazy when he starts to touch me this way.  Add in a few ass slaps and I am in subliminal bliss – in his total control, willing to do anything and everything for him.

He guided me slowly down onto my back and positioned himself between my legs, his body up by my head.  I could easily reach and tease his hard cock, as well as suck it if I bent just a bit toward him.  He spread my legs with one leg up on his ass, the other off the side of the bed.  My wet pussy and swollen clit were now inches from his face and spread wide.  The breeze from our fan was tantalizing my super soaked kitty!  He bagan to slowly tease me again – pulling on my pussy lips, spreading me open, fingering me gently and totally bringing me back to the brink of orgasm – but not allowing me to go over the pinnacle!

I was stroking his cock as fast as I could, and I told him I was going to cum if he kept going.  Sometimes my hubby likes me to have my ‘first’ cum with his cock buried in my pussy.  I have to admit, there is nothing better or more, fucking fantastic than having an orgasm with your man’s hard cock stuffed inside your pussy and his fingers on your clit.  *shiver* – simply divine!!!

Back to my night….so, knowing I was close to orgasm, he urged me to swing my ass to the side of the bed, where he could stand, pound my pussy hard, spread my legs, finger my clit, see my tits bounce up and down as well as get a fantastic visual of him fucking me.

As soon as his cock slid in I was ready to orgasm!  He felt magnificient, and my impending orgasm was squeezing his cock.  Faster he pumped me -so hard he hit my cervix with power!  Spreading my legs wide for him – holding my own ankles – I could feel my tits bouncing back and forth and he was starting to groan!  Fingering my pussy, he had me so close to orgasm.  He told me to fucking cum and I let myself go, cumming like crazy on his cock. 

Seeing his cock slick with my juices, my hubby was getting closer.  I pulled out my favorite bullet to get some more orgasms in (I am a greedy bitch, after all) and rattled off a few more Os.  It was awesome!  Finally, I saw his face contort as he let out a loud, ‘Ooooohhh,  ffuuuuccckkkking shhiittt’ and filled me to the brim with him!

As he was cumming I was cumming too, squeezing the life out of his cock and milking every drop from him and into me!  When he finally withdrew, his cum seeped quickly out of me, down my ass crack and onto our sheets!  A huge, wet, slick mess of our love was deposited on our bed.  A physical representation of our love and our lust.

I got up and did the walk of shame, naked, to our bathroom.  As soon as I sat down his cum dumped into the toilet, making a loud splash!  As I sat there, making sure it all ooozed out of me, I thought, ‘hmmmm, I guess I am a cum dump!’   I like it, knowing that I have the power to make my hubby cum in such large amounts, filling my pussy with the fruits of our labor.  Yes, I am a cum dump and I love it!