Holy Crap, I SUGASMED…..

Posted in Uncategorized on June 14, 2009 by mikayla1

SUGASM 167

The best of this week’s blogs by the bloggers who blog them. Highlighting the top 3 posts as chosen by Sugasm participants. Want in Sugasm #168? Submit a link to your best post of the week using this form. Participants, repost the link list within a week and you’re all set.

This Week’s Picks
Every Time You Orgasm, An Angel Gets Its Wings
“There is nothing that screams “fuck you” to the pain and the hurt in the world than screaming “fuck me” to the person in your bed.”

HNT: Spanked
“I wasn’t sure how I felt about him. But tonight, I was sure.”

A Thousand Kisses
“This wasn’t enough. I knew that I had to try something else.”

Mr. Sugasm Himself
Congratulations, you’re invited!

Sugasm Editor
Sex Work And Honesty: Religion

Editor’s Choice
Food, fun and commitment

More Sugasm
Join the Sugasm

(Sugasm participants should re-post all the links above within a week. The following links may be excluded as long as you include all the above links.)

NSFW Pics, Videos & Audio
Chloe
HNT
Love HNT Part II
So Many Stripes
Valentina Vaughn
Video Q&A #1

Thoughts on Sex and Relationships
Dementor
Fat Ass Betty
Full Circle
Going where no one has gone before

Sex Humor
Adventures in Craigslist (and a belated HNT)

Erotic Writing & Experiences
Ass-tute
Conversations about Crossdressing (Early Morning Version)
A Feast of Cock
Gender Fuck
Her Favorite Positions – The Conclusion
I Can’t Get No…Contraception
Lessons from an Orgy
Lilly’s Turn – Part 2: Wherein One Good Turn Deserves Another
Mirrors
Must be the weather…
New Perspective
Party.
Picture of Propriety
Playing with Dolls
Please don’t book me ever again
The Poet Surrenders
Rebirth In An Orgy
The Synestheatre
Wet dream at the airport-part1
A Wicked Birthday Bang

BDSM & Fetish
Bending over for some harsh cane stripes
Digging a hole, is that the way you treat me
Lick me
Preparing for Punishment: part one
Puppy’s first visit
A Salute to Masturbation May
SF Treat
Subs: How to NOT Apply
That Look
Thoughts about the play party and Femdom.
Under 40 ~ The New Kinky Bar
What Kind of Submissive Are You?

Sex Advice
How to be bisexual on the internet
How to Give a Tantric Breast Massage
Sometimes You Need A Break…

News, Reviews & Interviews
It’s Good to be the Intern
Kink Interview: Thomas’s Spanking Exploits
LELO Luna Beads: Because You Deserve Them
Product Review: Intimate Organics Energizing Fresh Orange & Wild Ginger Foot Foreplay Lotion
Top 5 Tuesday – Sun, Sand and Smut!

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Sexy, Sexy……SUGASM! (been a while for me)

Posted in Uncategorized with tags on May 27, 2009 by mikayla1

The best of this week’s blogs by the bloggers who blog them. Highlighting the top 3 posts as chosen by Sugasm participants. Want in Sugasm #167? Submit a link to your best post of the week using this form. Participants, repost the link list within a week and you’re all set.

This Week’s Picks
Bare-Assed Cheek (2): Punishment and Reward
“His finger glides up the inner side of my left thigh.”

Lilly’s Turn – Part 1: Wherein a Power Play is Made
“I asked her, outright, if she considered herself submissive.”

…please…
“Exquisite pain heralding exquisite surrender.”

Mr. Sugasm Himself
Is Sasha Grey going mainstream?

Sugasm Editor
A Difficult Scenario

Editor’s Choice
Just Looking

More Sugasm
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(Sugasm participants should re-post all the links above within a week. The following links may be excluded as long as you include all the above links.)

News, Reviews & Interviews
Horny Goat Weed: The Facts
Top Five Tuesday – Pop Culture Porn
Uniram Manual Sex Machine

Sex Advice
Ask Miss Bliss – She Brings Her Man To The All-Girl Sex Party
Guide to First-Time Anal Sex
How to Make Your Own Fucking Machine

BDSM & Fetish
“Dominant Savant…?”
Microfantasy Monday: Tits
More?
My favorite spanking blogs
Riffing on Brent Scott Riffing on Socrates (was Meeting BS)
Thank you, Jay Wiseman
What’s in the box?

Erotic Writing & Experiences
Burning the Midnight Oil
Camera Shy, Part 4
Couch. Confession #278
Drowning In Lust
Each Exquisite Stroke
Fantasy to Reality
I Like Being a Dirty Bitch
Miss blue that Naughty Little Voyeur
Play
Safe Haven
Sexy Skills
Sissy
Sleep Fucking

NSFW Pics, Videos & Audio
Bianca Beauchamp on a road trip
HNT – Thursday, May 21st, 2009
Hungarian Viva TV presenter is totally nude
Kim Kardashian Playboy Nude Pictures – Few More
Love HNT
Playful Flower
Stunning blonde schoolgirl is punished
“Vixen” -HNT

Sex Humor
A Chocolate Dick Treat
The Secret to Soul Mates

Thoughts on Sex and Relationships
Blow Jays
Darling, You Look Wonderful Tonight
Have you seen her…?

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A Wicked Birthday Bang…

Posted in Kinky Stuff, Uncategorized with tags , , , on May 25, 2009 by mikayla1

Yep, it is true, another birthday has come and gone.  My 38th birthday was Saturday.  I enjoyed a very quiet, peaceful birthday with all my boys on Saturday.  My hubby and I celebrated by going to see Blue Man Group in Chicago on Friday night and having a great dinner afterwards.  It was a late night, so unfortunately no play time (we had to get up early) but we did enjoy being out alone as ADULTS.

Now, the next night was a different story.  After a day of planting flowers, playing outdoors and having Chinese food [my favorite] for dinner, it was time to get our adult groove on!  While I wish I could say it was a night of BDSM fun and frolick, it was really pretty vanilla for us.  As many of you already know, my hubby is not the BDSM man [I dated a guy for 7 years who was totally my Master and I his slave] but my hubby does try his best to do what I like.  It can get a little annoying at times, but overall, he can pull it out when he wants to.

So my birthday bang was special because HB tried hard to spice it up for me without me having to direct him.  Usually, I am the one controlling the action, I sort of ‘lead by action’ so to speak, but this time was different.  He told me to just relax and enjoy…

I was not wearing anything special, just my comfy pj bottoms and this tight tank top that I love cause it is form fitting, flirty and fun (3 of 4 Fs!) Here is a rare pic for you to enjoy:

Flirty Tank

Flirty Tank

I am leaning forward just  a wee bit to give all those interested a better view of my cleavage.  I am most proud of my tits.  They are my favorite part of me.  38 and those suckers are still relatively firm and supported.  Gotta love that!

So anyway, I was casually dressed.  No corset, no lingerie, just comfy, ordinary sleeping attire.  Sometimes a girl has just got to be comfy, ya know?  Next week we are having a party, it is then that I will dress to the 9s with a sexy outfit and some lingerie, preferably a nice, tight corset!

Back to the birthdy bang….so, my HB told me to lie back and relax.  So I did.  He placed my hands above my head and told me to keep them there [ok, so handcuffs would have been nice, we have the headboard set up for it, but I was not in control of this] and I played along, feigning restraint. 

He began by laying next to me and just feeling my body.  Up my arms, down my side, over my nipples, around my ears.  Small flicks of his fingertips over my clothing.  It was aggrivatingly sexy.  He would stick a finger under my panty just a bit, then take it out.  I found myself arching up to meet his touch.  Divine.

It didn’t take long for him to grow impatient and hike my pj bottoms and panties down and off and take my tits out of my tank top, leaving it on for some reason.  Then he began his slow seduction again – up, down, over, around, but not ON anything directly.  It was arousing as hell.

Finally he started to tweak and suck on my nipples.  Hmmmmm, lovely.  Tweaking between his fingers, pulling ever so slighly, nibbling gently with his teeth.  I was wet and found myself really wanting to touch myself.  Feigning restraint.

It was so intoxicating.  He was enjoying his sloooow tease.  Finally he worked his way down to my very wet pussy.  I was pretending to be modest, keeping my legs together.  [a little game we play, where I wait for him to tell me to SPREAD MY LEGS FOR HIM] and right on cue he whispered,

spread your legs and give me that beautiful pussy darlin’  - MELT.

Oh, how I love to hear those words.  I am a dirty, leg spreading slut – so oppppeeenn my legs went, sending a rush of cool air from our fan right onto my wet, shaven pussy.  Hmmmmm, lovely.  I was ready to be touched, tasted, tickled and taken.  He was so slow, almost methodically absent when it came to touching my hot spots.  He went over and around, barely touching me.  He grazed my hot button, but didn’t push it.  He pulled my lips, but barely got me going.  DYING

He started to pull on my lips and flicking my clit with his fingertips.  I was spreading my legs, arching my back and moaning. 

‘Fuck my pussy with your fingers, please,’ I urged him.

‘No, you have to wait, I want to enjoy the view first,’ he nastily responded.

However, knowing how horny I was, he did begin to indulge me with some finger play.  My HB has a fantastic way of teasing me with fingers and tongue.  He spreads me wide and sticks just the tip of a finger in, teasing my clit with his thumb.  You could hear the wetness and my moans were getting louder.  FINALLY, he got betwee my legs and began to tease me with his tongue.  HEAVENLY.

He slowly licked my pussy, clit in his mouth….red hot….swollen….achy……fingers in….spread…..dying

2 fingers.  wet and slippery.  3 fingers.  full and tight.  4 fingers.  gonna cum.  Spread them…cumming…..MMMMMmmmmmmm……fuck my pussy…..oh LORD….goood…….coming down….

‘I want to suck your cock,’ I say to him, trying to get to him.

‘Not today, this is your birthday bang, now get on all fours and put that ass in the air!’ he demands.  I obey.

I get on my hands and knees, place my ass in the air, my tits leaning heavily down and my pussy wet and ready to be fucked.  I felt the lube hit my asshole and got instantly excited.  I felt the plug going in slowly….in and outin and out.  in and finally….sucked in.   AWESOME!

Plug in place – vibrating plug – he got behind me.  His rock hard cock head starting to poke at my pussy….

‘Put it in, fuck me, please, fuck me now…..’

Breathless.

He took my cue and SHOVED his cock roughly into me. 

Fuck.  Good.  Tight.

He handed me my favorite bullet.  Love him.  Knows me. 

I began to tease my clit with the bullet, felt the plug vibrating in my ass, my HB rock hard erection in my pussy – DYING TO CUM

I couldn’t hold it anymore.  My HB began fucking me with intense purpose and my ass started to contract on the plug, my clit engorged and then I felt my hair being pulled back.  That was all it took….

Release…..explosion……cumming…..delicious….multiples…..squirting…FUCK ME……UUgghhhh….

That was the most delectable orgasm I had in a long time!  Simple sex [for all intents and purposes] and it was fantastic.

My HB continued to fuck me hard, then gently goading me to get on my back.  He pulled me down to the edge of the bed, spread my legs wide and started fingering my very sensitive clit.  He fucked me so hard I could feel his cock head on my cervix.  My tits were bouncing hard, my legs were spread wide and my hubby was fucking me hard, pulling my legs apart as far as he could.

I felt the next wave of orgasm coming and I started clenching down on him as hard as I could……fuck….so sensitive….more multiples….fucking goood…..

‘Oh My GOD…fucking cumming…..filling your pussy……FUUCCCKKK,’ he murmured and filled me deep with his cum as I came again.

Sweaty, full, satisfied, sore, lovely, wet, delicious, love, done…..

Sometimes slow and steady wins the race….and we both won.  It was a wicked birthday bang and I loved it!

 

 

SEXY SKILLS

Posted in Kinky Stuff, Uncategorized on May 11, 2009 by mikayla1

OK, so let us take a break for a minute and go back to discussing the sexy somethings that have made me so popular with my blogging buds.  I have to report a fun-fucking-tastic sexual experience that I shared with my hubby this weekend.  It was mind blowing and orgasmic….oh, the memories make me wet.

OK, so Saturday night the hubby and I were engaging in a little adult entertainment (i.e. beer for me, 7/7 for him, a nice porno selection) and we were getting drunk and hot and HORNY as HELL!  So we had to work it out, so to speak.  With the moans and groans of the pretty people on the wide screen, we went to it.  We kissed like hot teenagers, explored each other and I instantly felt his large erection on my inner thigh. Heaven. We taunted each other with tiny nibbles on ears, licks on necks, strokes all over.  We were achingly hot….

I stood up, removed my top and revealed heaving, 40D breasts…just aching to be suckled.  I took down my jeans to reveal my black, lace, matching panties, or rather, boyshorts.  I began to undress him.  Untucking his shirt, unbuttonign his jeans, removing them while allowing my fingertips to stroke his skin.  His dick was hard and ready, and so was I.  Just before going to kneel, he pulls out my pink handcuffs from the side of the couch cushion.

“Oh, are we going to play,” I asked.

No verbal response, just him taking my hands and cuffing them behind my back.  Tits now VERY much at attention with the added push of my restrained arms.  He spread my legs and ran his hands and fingers up and down my thighs.  The moisture that indicated my hotness was evident and seaping through the lacy fabric.  He slapped my ass – then rubbed it – then slapped it again.  It was totally and utterly divine attention – much needed…

I wanted to suck his cock, and I told him.  He began to undo the cuffs….

“Honey, I can do this still cuffed up, sit back on the couch….” I mewed to him.

Not seeming as he believed me, he tentatively removed his boxers and sat down, leaned against the back of the couch and said, ’suck my cock, wench….’

I got down on my knees with agility that I was hoping I still had, and took my time getting to his cock.  Licking and nibbling his stomach, thighs and balls.  I teased him merciliously with my talented tongue.  He discoved my hair was impinging my mouth, so he thoughtfully grabbed it up in his hands, pulling my head back so my eyes met his.  No words exchanged, but the ‘you are so fucking good’ was expressed.

I took his cock head in my mouth, licking, sucking, spitting on him.  I began to suck and suck as my tits rested nicely on his thighs.  I swallowed his manhood with verve and vigor, not letting one inch of his erection be missed by my slimy seduction…..he was in my control, and I was the one who was bound up!  Now, my friends, I suggest to you, that is TALENT!  His cock bounced in my mouth, hit my cheeks, went down my throat and not once did I use my hands.  Not once did I need to replace his cock in my mouth or to have him assist me.  My only assistance in this endeavor was him forcing my head to bounce on his cock, as he fucked my face hard and fast.  My throat opened easily to accomodate him as his fingers found my nipples, causing the little moan to escape between bobs….

Soon, in fact sooner than I thought, he began to writhe in plesasure, his balls became tight and he exploded deep within my throat, holding my head down so that every delicious drop was deposited down my waiting throat.

‘God damn you suck fucking great cock Mikayla,’ he said with heavy breath!

I must say, I was thrilled to hear it.

Now MY turn to reap the spoils of my labor, he quickly picked me up and bent me over the side of the couch.  Diving into my pussy with fingers and tongue.  He spread my legs wide and teased me to orgasm after orgasm, as he quickly came back to life.  He stood up, and placed his cock quickly into my wet and waiting pussy, pounding me hard.  I heard the slap of his balls on my thighs, felt the urge of his lust in my pusssy, and needed to feel the head of his cock hitting my furthest reaches…

He picked my leg up and put my left knee on the couch, opening me up far and wide for him.  He pushed my head down on the side of the couch and began fingering my pussy with his fingers.  I was so hot!  Tied and being fucked, what more could a simple girl want?  I began to moan and talk dirty….fuck that pussy, fuck me hard…pound me hard baby….

That was more than enough encouragement, he buried himself in deep and came in a hot rush!  I responded in kind as he slapped my pussy the best he could from the angle.  He took his cock out and gave me a wonderful treat, he went down and ate me out to another orgasm.  I was in heaven.

Apparently, I have sexy skills that inspire only the naughtiest of reactions!

Just A Quickie….

Posted in Ponderings...., Uncategorized with tags on May 6, 2009 by mikayla1

Yeah, I have been busy…very busy.  Life is at a high point.  However, I realize I have sort of left people hanging with regards to my ‘friend.’  I did make a comment recently with an update, but this will be more….prominent.

Yes, we still talk.  Yes, it is still ONLY plutonic, no sex.  Yes, I am still smitten with him.  Why?  Well, he is SOOOOO wickedly smart.  I think that when women say ‘I am attracted to intelligence’ they mean, ‘as long as that comes in a package of tall, dark and handsome’ – but what if, you had no idea what the other person looked like?  Would he still be so attractive?

I can honestly say, I am smitten wtih this man’s mind…just his mind, not his face, pecks, cock or any other part of him.  I am not engaging in cyber sex, I am not sending naked pictures – or ’sexting’ – I am just….talking about life.  We discuss literature, politics, religion…..not sex yet, but maybe……we just chat.  I ask a question, he answers; he askes a question, I answer.  It is a bonafide quid pro quo….and I love it.

So, all my worried blogger buds can just sigh in relief, it is just a case of intelligence stalking on my part.  He is just a ‘friend’ in any plutonic way that could be meant.

However, I am a bit worried….what if…..IF….the talks turn sexy?  What if he starts to ask questions about sex?  What do I do?  I guess I will cross that hypothetical bridge when and if it comes!

For now, I am still enjoying my sexy mind fuck…and He is FUCKING GOOD!!!

The Mind Fuck

Posted in Ponderings.... with tags , , on March 19, 2009 by mikayla1

Have you ever had a conversation with someone that is totally, completely, unihibitedly erotic?  The kind of conversation that leaves you wet and weak in the knees – or hard as a teenager seeing Playboy for the first time?  For me, the mind fuck is almost as good…..almost……as the real, flesh and cock version.

Recently I have acquired a new friend.  This friend is very interesting to me.  “He” is intelligent beyond intelligent, erotic, creative, intense.  He is a wonderful person to talk to.  Am I interested in having a sexual relationship with him – NO.  I am happily married and have a fantastic sex life.  However, sometimes a gal needs a little ‘cerebral stimulation of the erotic kind.

I am sure many of us have had those experiences where we have had cyber sex.  You know, that whole:

First, I am gonna suck your cock, then I am gonna lick up to your mouth

Oh, then what will you do to me?

Then I will jump on your cock and ride you with reckless abandon until we both climax in a sweaty heap….

This is not this kind of cyber-relationship.  This relationship is somehow….more erotic.   There is no direct conversation regarding sex.  I don’t doubt for a moment that He has no dishonorable intentions toward me, or that he wants anything more from me than friendship.  I have no reason to think that this would become anything more than what it is…..a pleasant diversion from my day by having playful and intelligent conversations…..

But…..well, there is the thing, right…there is always a but….

Where is it going?  Is it just a big mind fuck….or, more of a sign that I need more sexual stimulation.  How does He feel about it?  Is it scary for him?  Exciting?  Erotic?  Sexually stimulating? 

I don’t want to scare Him off, but I have to work this through my mind.  That, my blogging buds, is where you come in….I need to vent…a place to vent….so that is what I will do….

Am I loosing my sensible mind?

Blue Eyes: An Erotic Story Break

Posted in Kinky Stuff with tags , , , on January 21, 2009 by mikayla1

Is it real or just a fantasy?  You guess…..

Blue Eyes

     Silent electricity pumped through my body as I prepared to meet my gal pals at our local bar.  I was hoping with all my being that I would see the gorgeous stranger who had been there last week.  He was ruggedly handsome with thick black hair meant for pulling, soft, kissable lips, strong arms designed to lift a woman easily, and piercing blue eyes that surely would lead anyone down a sinful road.  I was not in the practice of daydreaming about strange men, but this man was….different.  He only looked my way a few times last week, but in those moments – when his eyes met mine – there was a sort of expectation.  Silent, yet all knowing, I felt connected to him.  It was odd, but very, very erotic.

     I had to plan my outfit carefully.  Showing too much skin would present me as a slut – an easy target – which I really wasn’t.  However, covering up my assets –namely, my firm 38D breasts – would be a shame against nature.   I finally decided to go the full nine and dress for sexual success from bottom to top.  I began my layering with a matching thong and panty set.  Normally, panties were not my thing when I was expecting hot sex – but in this case it was not really hope but a tentative wish.  I applied a shimmering body lotion making my skin silky and sexy as well as adding some shimmer to draw the eye where I wanted.  The bra and panties were black – a great sexy color – and properly lifted my tits up and out, making for a very nice silhouette. 

     Over the lingerie I opted for a simple pair of low riding jeans that just barely showed my cum-catcher tat on my lower back.  The shirt was tight and white – planned to show the black bra – and was sufficiently short enough to frame the naval ring.  To complete the outfit a pair of high heeled boots, silver Tiffany necklace to sit above my ample cleavage, silver watch and bracelet.  Make-up and hair was sleek and simply, but smoldering and sexy.  A spritz of perfume and I was ready to go. 

     When I entered the bar with my friends my stomach was literally doing flip flops.  I was not sure what hold this man had over me, but there was an intrigue that I could not hide.  He had never spoken to me, nor even gotten closer than 30 feet from me, but I just knew that if we were to get together it would be hot and addicting. 

     As I looked around the dark room I could not find the source of my anticipation.  I was sorely disappointed, but decided that I looked hot enough to enjoy myself anyway.  I settled in with my friends at a back table near the dartboards and began drinking my kamikaze shots and vodka and cranberry juice.  I wanted to be sober – or partially sober – if Blue Eyes made an appearance, so I was careful to pace myself.  In the meantime, I was approached by quite a few men in the bar.  Most of them were sufficiently hot enough to peak my interest, but still I held on for my dream man.  I started to wonder what the fuck I was doing at a bar, being approached by man after man and NOT acting on any of it?  What if Blue Eyes never came?  What if he came and never even looked at me?  I was being stupid and I was angry at myself.  I huffed off to the ladies room to cool off and reapply lipstick.  I was horny and one way or another I was going to quench that need – even if it wasn’t with Blue Eyes.

     Rounding the corner from the bathrooms I was suddenly placed face to face with HIM.  He was sitting at a table by the dart board, not too far from where my friends were seated, and I practically knocked his beer out of his hand when I came round the corner. 

“Sorry, I almost spilled your beer,” I sputtered, sounding like a total flake.

“Now that would be a shame, to get beer on that nice, white shirt,” he responded, with a cool confidence in his voice that make me instantly wet.

Not sure what to do next I excused myself back to my table.  My heart was on fire, my panties were wet, my nipples were hard and I was scared.  What the fuck was wrong with me?  I don’t know anything about this guy, and I was acting like an 8th grader waiting to be asked to the dance!  As I sat there, muttering to myself, I felt a tap on my shoulder.  I turned around to see Blue Eyes standing there. 

“Would you and your friends like to play some darts, perhaps on teams,” he asked me, those eyes piercing into my deepest soul.

“Uh, sure, we would love to play,” I answered.

Oh my God, he talked to me, he touched me….I was in heaven and I hadn’t even really spoken to him yet.   I had to get myself together or this would go badly. 

“What are you drinking,” I asked him, pulling some bills out of my pocket, and purposely directly his eyes to my waist.

“Miller Lite, but I can’t let you buy my drinks, let me….,” he began to protest.

Coolly I responded, ‘Oh no, let me and we will make a little wager on the game for the next round.’

As I walked to the bar I was keenly aware that he was watching me.  I felt confident and more in control of myself.  I was ready for the foreplay to begin – and by foreplay I meant the mind fuck that was sure to come next.

Handing Blue Eyes his beer, I inquired as to the format of the teams.  Boys against girls perhaps?  Blue Eyes suggested we pair up, to make it more ‘even.’  He suggested that he and I be on a team, and then other pairs of two.  Each winner would play the next team, etc.  Sounded great to me.  I was a confident dart player, so I knew I would fare well. 

As the night progressed our team was doing great!  He was an awesome dart player.  I was drinking slowly, staying alert, playing great darts all while throwing out sexual innuendos and sassy comments.  I was feeling totally in control.  After about an hour of playing Blue Eyes made a move.  While I was preparing to throw my final dart, needing 8 points to win, he came up behind me, slipped his arm around my waist his fingers just barely going down the front of my jeans, and breathed deeply into my ear and said, ‘now baby, you can do this, I know you can,’ and he nibbled my ear just a bit.  Cold chills went down my spine as I threw and hit the numbers we needed!  I turned around excitedly and Blue Eyes picked me up and swung me around like I was a feather.  He was massively strong – and that turned me on big time!

My girlfriend Mia screamed, “Oh Mikayla, you really know when to pull out all the stops!”

“Mikayla huh, that is a sexy name, for a sexy woman,” Blue Eyes whispered in my ear.  The sound of his voice lulled me into a false sense of self.  I felt almost hypnotized when he spoke; it was bone chilling and erotic.  I muttered something about not having to buy the next beers, but I was not thinking about that bet.

Releasing his grip I excused myself to the ladies room.  I was in a state of complete shock and awe.  This guy was so dark.  Mysterious is not even a thorough enough word for him.  As I stood there staring at myself in the dingy mirror his image suddenly appeared behind me.  I thought, for a brief moment, that I was hallucinating or drunk, but the image got closer.  He whipped me around, pushed me up against the wall and shoved his hand down my pants.  In one quick motion he sampled my juices and brought his finger to his lips.

“Just wanted to see if you tasted as sweet as you smelled,” he growled in my ear.  “And you do….and I love the bald pussy too….”

With that he walked out of the bathroom, leaving me shuddering against the wall.  What was I supposed to do now?  I was totally set back and yet turned on, by his blatant sexual advance.  No one had ever done that before.  I was sure that he wanted to fuck me – but I had the notion that he wanted to do more than that – and I was afraid.

I walked out of the bathroom and met him and his friends.  Some of them were pairing up with my gal pals and leaving.  I was unsure of what to say or do, but Blue Eyes took care of it for me. 

“Mikayla, looks like our friends are ready to go.  Would you like to come to my house, perhaps for a few more drinks?”

My brain said, ‘no,’ but my body said ‘yes’ and I looked into those eyes and knew I would follow him anywhere.

As we left the bar, my body was in a total state of cold.  I was buzzed, but not drunk, and definitely curious as to what was going to happen.  I got into his SUV, buckled up and prepared for what was to come.  I was usually a very sexually aggressive person, but something told me to play it cool with him.  He seemed so in control – his whole body screamed it – and I was a slave at heart.

As we left the parking lot Blue Eyes placed his hand on my upper thigh.  He suggested, ‘spread your legs a bit for me,’ and like a magic word had been uttered, I did.  His hand found the warm spot and just the quick touch from his hand sent me almost into orgasm.  I looked over and noticed a very large bulge in his pants.   Normally, I would have grabbed it and gave him a nice car blowjob, but this time I was hanging back.

“If you want, I can take it out of my pants, but I think I would prefer to wait to unveil it,” he said, almost reading my mind.

As we drove along Blue Eyes talked about trivial things, occasionally touched my cheek, breasts or thigh and just kept me guessing.  By the time we pulled into his driveway I was more confused than ever – and hornier.  He walked me up to this gorgeous older home atop a hill in the middle of the country.  No other houses for miles and miles.  This was sexy and scary.  What if I needed help?  Who would hear me screaming?  I guess my trust for Blue Eyes was not as complete as I thought.  However, the tentative nature of my psyche was further pushing my excitement. 

Inside the house was a grand living room.  Dark, red curtains covered the floor to ceiling windows.  A fireplace stood against the far wall, next to a large, comfy looking couch.  Blue Eyes directed me to the couch and asked me to sit tight while he got some drinks and made a fire.  I settled into the couch and watched him expertly make the fire and leave the room to get the drinks.  I looked around and saw tasteful art on every wall – very contemporary in style.  Most of the images were dark and conveyed a assort of masochistic vibe.   There were some odd, medieval looking statues on the mantle place, and on the opposite wall, a selection of whips and riding crops.  I wondered if Blue Eyes rode horses.

Returning with our drinks, we sat and chatted.  Suddenly, I felt myself getting very buzzed, almost to drunkenness, and Blue Eyes took my drink away.  Taking my head in his hands he kissed me.  A deep, full kiss that placed tingles down my spine.  He looked at me and asked, ‘do you trust me Mikayla?’

‘Again, my brain said ‘no’ but my mouth whispered, ‘yes.’

‘I am going to share an experience with you that are unlike any you have ever experienced.  It will push the limits of sex for you and for me.  You will beg me to stop as well as to continue.  Your body will be exhausted, your mind will race, but you will love every damn minute.  Do you trust me now Mikayla,’ he asked while running his finger over the tops of my breasts.

I whispered, ‘yes.’

With that he picked me up and carried me away down a hallway.  We entered a room lit with candles.  It seemed like thousands of candles.  There was a large, 4 poster bed against the far wall.  A few large bureaus, a small dresser, something hanging in the corner by the bed.  There were a few doors that led to other rooms, perhaps closets, but other than that, the room was bare.  He directed me to stand and not to move.  I didn’t dare.  He went into an adjoining room and came out with something that looked like fabric. 

“Mikayla, from this point on you will do what I say, how I say it, and when I say it.  If, at any time, you get uncomfortable and want to stop, please say the word ‘lightbulb’ and I will cease and desist.  Is this OK with you?”

I whispered, ‘yes.’

“YOU will address me as SIR and only SIR, is that clear!” he yelled.

With that, the game began and I answered, ‘Yes SIR.’

He instructed me to go and freshen up and to go to the bathroom.   As I was in there, I stared at myself in the mirror.  Did I want to do this?  I had been in relationships with dominant sex, but this man seemed…more intense.  I was so curious.  He said I could stop it.  I believed him.  Didn’t I? 

I finished up and went back out.  Blue Eyes was standing in the center of the room.  I walked up to him and stopped just shy of his arm’s reach.

“Take off your clothes,” he barked at me.  His tone was firm and commanding, but not mean.

Hesitating, I began to undress.  I got to my bra and panties and he said, “ALL of it.”

Perplexed, I slowly took off my bra and panties.  I stood there, shaking, naked and dripping wet.  I don’t think my pussy had been this wet ever.  He gathered up my clothes and folded them nicely, placing them on a chair in the corner.

He came up behind me and slowly, seductively ran his hands over my body.  I dared not move, and this pleased him.  “You are a good little slut; know how to stand still for your inspection.”

He continued to run his hands over me.  He pinched my nipples and pulled them.  He ran his nails over my ass; he kissed my ear and bit it as he circled my body.  Then, he stopped and presented me with some clothes.

“Put this on,” he commanded.

It was a beautiful black and red corset.  It tied up the back, so I needed his help getting it on.   I placed it around my front and held it there.  “Would you tie this up please?” I asked.

SMACK….a hard slap right on my ass! 

“I told you never to address me without sir!” he barked.  “Ask me again whore!”

Stunned from my ass spank, I looked up and asked again, ‘Please, sir will you tie up the corset?’

He obliged me that time, lacing the corset up so tightly that my nipples were barely covered by the beautiful, silky fabric.

“When I saw those tits of yours, I knew a corset would be the best thing,” he mewed into my ear.  “I had a whole week to find just the right one.  I knew you would come to me tonight.”

Now I was really excited.  He HAD noticed me, and he had wanted to see me.  This was all pre-arranged.  His arrogance was extremely erotic.

He grabbed my hands and walked me over to the wall.  What I suddenly saw clearly as I got closer was a set of shackles on the wall.  The dark room made it impossible to see until I was almost right on them.  He took my hands and put them above my head, placing the cool, fur lined shackles on my wrists.  With a click, I was a prisoner.  My breasts were heaving from the pressure of the corset and my heart was pounding. 

Blue Eyes reached into a small dresser next to the shackles and pulled out a pair of panties and something that was clear and looked like plastic.

“Spread your legs wide” he commanded.  I did as I was instructed and Blue eyes went down to his knees before me.  I was anticipating that he would lick my pussy, but I didn’t get that.   I felt his hands roaming around my thighs, scratching at them.  He ran his finger over my snatch, just barely touching it.  It was a deliciously painful torture.

I felt the coolness of the plastic and assumed he was going to fuck me with a dildo.  I was wrong.  Very, very wrong.  I heard the telltale sound of lube being squirted and then felt my asshole being entered by a rather large, slick object.  I gasped as it started to enter me, and my body instinctively moved up onto my toes.  He worked the butt plug in expertly and soon he was placing the tight, leather panties over my legs. 

“This will keep the plug in, and I expect you to keep tight and NOT let it fall out!”

I heard the drawer open again, and felt his hands on my neck and throat.  He placed a blindfold on my eyes, kissed me deeply as he did it, and then opened the drawer again.  I heard chains jingling.  I felt him search for my nipples in the corset.  He pulled them just above the corset hem.  Pulling on them, and twisting them.  I was in agony – sweet agony. 

He placed the nipple clamp on and I ‘yelped’ with pleasure and pain.

“Little one, don’t yelp, it doesn’t become you,” he whispered in my ear, “I know you can take much, much more.”  He continued by putting another clamp on my other nipple.  Once secure, he gave a tug.  Then, I felt him down by my legs again.  I felt the fabric of my panties being lifted and a clamp being placed on my clitoral hood.  The pleasure and pain combination was insanely intense.  I was tempted to move, but decided not to.

I was not sure how long I could hang here, having all my best erogenous zones teased.  Just when I thought it couldn’t get more torturous, it did.  The chains that connected my pussy to my nipples suddenly got very, very taught.  One little motion from me instantly pulled on them.  It was simple torture.  Blue Eyes got next to my ear and said, “you look delicious chained to my wall with clamps on your pussy and nipples….and I am going to reward you later for your obedience.  Now, I need you to stay still, don’t cum, and I will return later…”

With that, he kissed me hard on the mouth, pulled on the chain for good measure and left the room.  I could hear him in the next room.  I heard rustling and finally water running.  I was chained and helpless against his wall, and he was taking a Goddamn shower!  Fuck. 

I stayed there, trying not to move, my arms aching, my toes hurting, my nipples and pussy throbbing.  I wondered how long I would have to endure this?  Without a watch or clock to see, blindfolded and horny I hung there.  I decided to just relax and go with it.  This wasn’t so bad and I didn’t sense that Blue Eyes would really hurt me.  I hung there.  It seemed like hours before I heard the door open.  I heard him walking around, drawers opening and shutting.  I heard him get close as I bent to try and get a comfortable spot.  I just hung there.  Eventually I heard a clicking sound.  I could see nothing with the blindfold, but kept hearing ‘click, click, click….’ my interest was really peaked.

Just when I began to think I was going to be a bound prisoner Blue Eyes came up and pulled the chain.

“Oh Little One, you are so fucking sexy hanging there.  Do your nipples hurt?  Is your clit engorged?  Are you wet like a good Little One?”

I wasn’t sure whether or not to answer.  I muttered, “I am very wet, Sir.”

With that I got a nice reward.  Blue Eyes kissed my neck, my nose and then my mouth.  Sensual kisses, loving kisses, nice, French kisses.  He was a great kisser.  I was getting more and hotter by the second.  He stopped kissing me and I heard a drawer open again – then I heard the buzzing.  I felt the vibrator on my nipples – clinking against the clamps – and then on my stomach.  Thighs next and finally around and under the clitoral clamp.  I was so horny that I knew I would cum quickly.  I was scared because that seemed so vulnerable to me.  Hanging there, exposed and so hot.  Blue Eyes knew that I was ready for some release and he began to tease my clit with the vibrator.

“If you want to cum, you can Little One.  Cum whenever you want.”

Just hearing him say that really made me hot.  I began to open my legs as much as I could, bucking against the vibrator as much as I could.  I wanted my legs open, my clit tight and exposed.  I was dying to cum for him.  I bent my knees back, placing my feet against the wall and thrust my pussy up and out as far as I could.  The shackles were tight and I was ready to cum.  I felt the hot rush to my pussy and knew I was going to explode.  I began to cum in a hot rush and wave and the butt plug was pulsating in my ass.  I was moaning and screeching and finally came down from my orgasmic high!

“Now Little One, that was a freebie.  From now on, I will tell you when you can cum.  Do not cum unless I give you permission, is that understood?”

“Yes, Sir,” I muttered in a guttural tone.

With that I was released from the wall.  The blindfold stayed on, but the clamps were removed.  Blue Eyes walked me across the room and I felt the highness of the 4 poster against my stomach.  He helped me onto the bed and told me to lie on my back.  I felt him above me and I was curious as to what was going to come next.  Was he going to fuck me or was he going to torture me slowly some more. 

I got my answer when I felt him tie my wrists to the posters and then remove my panties and the plug, then tying my ankles spread open to the bottom posters.  I was totally exposed – but by this time, didn’t really care.

I heard him shuffling around, then sensed him lying next to me.  He slowly and deliciously ran his hands over my body.  I was aching for him to touch my tits or pussy, but he deliberately avoided those spots.  He kissed my neck, my breasts, my arms, my face.  Then he got up and I felt something on my lips – his cock – and it was large. 

“Suck my cock Little One; I want to see what you can really do with those pouty lips!”

I began to take his cock in the best I could.  I had to admit that I had given many a blowjob, but never without the use of my hands.  He bucked his hips slowly forward and back, as I took his love pole into my mouth and down my throat.  He was so huge that when I tried to deepthoat him, I gagged.  This pleased him greatly and he began to thrust his cock down my throat more rapidly.  I sucked his cock the best I could, bending my neck up and trying desperately to get it all in.  I heard Blue Eyes make a groan and then felt the hot load streaming down my throat.  I had done well, apparently and felt proud.

That feeling only lasted a few seconds….

“Now look what you did slut, you made me cum.  I wasn’t ready to cum yet.  Now you will pay for that…”

The game had changed yet again.  My mind was so confused and yet I knew what I had to do. 

“Sorry Sir, I tried to please you,” I admitted, with sincerity and softness.

I got no verbal reply, but I did get something else I wanted.  Blue Eyes began to lick my stomach and went lower and lower until I felt his hot mouth on my pussy.  He hovered above me, breathing his hotness on me.  I thought that alone would make me cum, but I knew I couldn’t.  I was a woman who had powerful orgasms, there was no way I could fake not having one.

He began to expertly work his fingers around my snatch.  Fingering my lips and blowing hot breath on me.  His tongue finally found its way to my hot button and I began to buck up and against him, but was getting so close to orgasm.  He thrust 1, then 2 fingers into my wetness and I thought I was going to lose it.  Licking my clit, fingering my lips and fucking me with his large fingers were about all I could take.  My pussy began to clench against him and I could barely stand it.  As if he knew exactly how I felt, Blue Eyes whispered “cum Little One” and like magic, I did.  I came and came and came and felt the wetness between my legs.  The dirty words came from my mouth like a dirty whore, and I hoped that wouldn’t cost me anything.  He made me cum again and again by working my clit and lips like an expert.  When I thought I could handle no more, he stopped and left the bed.

I lie there, panting and coming down from my high.   I really wanted to be fucked now.  Really, really badly.  I was sure he knew that, and it was all part of this game.

When Blue Eyes came back to the bed he released my arms and legs and helped me up.  He untied the corset and let my tits free.  I could feel the indent of the corset’s boning on my stomach.  He kept the blindfold on, but walked me across the room, through a door. 

“I am going to place you on the toilet.  You can go to the bathroom, but do not take off the blindfold.  There are wipes on the counter to your right.”

I was frozen, sitting there.  I had never peed in front of anyone – and I really, really had to go.  I decided to just do it.  It was a great release and very welcomed by me.  I felt for the wipes and found them.  Finishing up I yelled, “I am done, Sir,” and he took my hand.  He had, indeed, stood there while I did my business.  I was hoping that this wouldn’t turn into a golden shower type thing, cause that was not my cup of tea!

I was led back to the bedroom, past the bed. 

“I am going to place you up into this swing,” he said, “do not worry, I can lift you easily and I won’t drop you.”

Swing?  I had heard about sex swings, but had never been in one.  I was very, very curious.

He picked me up easily and placed me in a soft, fabric swing.  It wasn’t like a typical sex swing, this one had sleeves for my legs and when my legs were placed in them, they automatically spread very wide.  There were similar sleeves for my arms, but they were extended above my head.   The gentle sway of the swing was mesmerizing, and the cold air that tickled my nipples and pussy was divine.  I felt his hands on me almost immediately and knew that he was enjoying the view.  He tweaked my nipples and ran his hands slowly down to my pussy.  I felt so totally exposed, and as I could not see him, I was even more turned on.  His fingers played gently with my clit, with a quick dip inside for good measure.  Then, I sensed him moving away.  I heard the door to the bathroom close quietly, and I just hung there.  While I liked the game of slow seduction, I was not sure about being left dangling there.  I was anxious.

The swing just moved gently, as I swung back and forth and around in small circles.  I was nearly asleep, silent in my temporary security, when I felt his fingers on my pussy and his lips on my nipples.   He was sucking them hard, bringing them deep into his mouth.  His fingers were teasing me and making me very wet again.  Just when I wondered if I would or could cum again, he stopped. 

“Oh Little One, you please me.  Your pussy gets so wet and makes a very pretty thing to look at.  I am going to punish you for making me so damn horny.”

I was motionless and confused.  Punished?  For making him horny.  While I contemplated a response I heard the ‘swish’ and felt the ‘snap’ of a leather strap on my pussy.  My clit loved the slight punch of the strap. 

“Since I am going to ride you later, I thought you might enjoy a little riding crop punishment.”

Blue Eyes was rubbing the end of the riding crop up and down my wet slit, teasing my hot button and making me anxious and horny.  He would alternate the tease with a snap on my clit.  The last one got harder and caused me to writhe in my restraints.  I felt the hotness rise in me as Blue Eyes continued to snap my pussy.  He began to alternate his pattern, snapping my ass with the crop and also my nipples.  Flicking my nipples was torturous beyond compare – but the whole pattern was working me quickly into a thither. 

“Are you fucking ready to be fucked Little One,” he asked, with a definite growl.

“Yes, Sir, please fuck me,” I begged with almost a crying tone to my voice.

With that I felt him near me, but was confused as to the way this would be done.  I felt fingers roughly entering my cunt.  I felt one, then two, then 3 fingers.  I was breathing heavily, trying desperately not to cry out in pain.  He began working the 4th and then 5th fingers into my snatch, while licking my clit with his tongue.  Then, with a quick, fast push I felt his fist enter me.  The pressure was divine, the fullness was fantastic.  I needed release…I wanted to cum…I felt the telltale feeling of a g-spot orgasm rising within me.  I began to whimper and he knew, he just knew, that I had to cum.

“Cum for me you fucking slut…”

And I did.  I came and came and felt the wetness squirting out.  As his fist entered my hole my juices left my body in an uncontrollable gush of excitement.  I had never cum so fucking hard in my life, and I was ready for more.  I spread my legs as far as I could, I simply wanted to be fucked as hard as I could, and this pleased him.

“Yes Little One, spread those fucking legs so I can fist that pussy!”

“Sir, please, I have…to …..I have to….” I muttered, trying to get out the words.

Knowing that I was reaching my limit, he stopped.  I was relieved, yet disappointed.   I was totally absorbed in the minute and was lost in his method of madness.

When he removed his hand I felt a sense of relief and sadness.   He untied my arms and removed me from the swing.

“You did well Little One. You are really pleasing me tonight.”

He placed me back on the bed.  I waited for him to tie me, but he didn’t.  I waited for instructions. 

He lay down next to me and kissed me. I could taste myself on his tongue.  It was erotic.  Deep, long kisses.  He pet my face, ran his fingers through my hair, kissed my neck, ears.  He was very tender.  I wondered if the harsh nature of this night was over.  I wondered, seriously wondered, if I would be fucked by that large cock or not.

He removed my blindfold and looked into my eyes.  “You are even better than I expected Mikayla.  You have not disappointed.  Your pussy is primed and ready for me and the best part of the evening is yet to come.  I am going to fuck you until you can’t move and you will love it,” he whispered as he kissed my ear.  The mix of tenderness and authority was maddening.

“Go wash up and when you are ready, return to me,” he instructed.

I went tentatively to the bathroom.  My legs were weak from the orgasmic rush, I was tired but energized.  I was afraid, but excited.  My emotions were intertwined and erratic.  I was in a total subspace and couldn’t wait to see what happened next.

When I returned to the bed, there was Blue Eyes, naked with his beautiful cock at full attention. 

“Walk to me Little One,” and I did.  “Now, make me want to fuck you.”

With that as my only instruction, I got up onto the bed.  He was on his knees so I faced him also on my knees.  I kissed him hard on the lips, then went to nibble his ears.  This seemed to please him.  Then I suckled on his neck and moved down to his chest.  Carefully, slowly, erotically I teased his every inch.  Allowing his hard cock to touch me, but not in any blatant manner.  I gently pushed him onto his back and took his cock into my mouth.  Now, with the use of my hands, I could guide his love pole deep into my throat, looking up at him while I deepthroated him.  He looked down at me with a pleased expression as I fucked his dick with my mouth.  I suckled his balls, licked his shaft, nibbled his pole until he was bucking against my mouth.  Suddenly, he sat up and threw me around, sucking on my pussy with abandon.  We were now in a 69 with me on top.  My favorite position.

As I worked at his cock and he at my pussy, I was begging, silently to be fucked.  I felt his balls contract and was a bit afraid that I would be punished for making him cum, but he knew better.  He lifted me off me and instructed me to get on my hands and knees.  I felt his cock teasing my love hole and braced myself for him.  He began to enter me in ball’s deep strokes – hitting my insides and making me cum instantly. 

“Fuck, your pussy is still tight Little One,” he moaned into my ear as he rammed my pussy with his rod.  He at my shoulder, reached over and got a toy and began to work it smoothly into my ass.  I love double penetration, and as the toy made its way in, the tightness was almost unbearable.  Fucked in my ass and pussy I was in heaven.  He was an excellent fuck, taking his time, varying his strokes.  Hitting me and working that toy like a pro.  Fuck, I was cuming and didn’t ask permission, but he allowed it.

“Get on your back slut, I want to see those tits,” he instructed.

In a fluid motion, without missing a beat or withdrawing, I shifted to my back.  He thrust my legs apart, leaving the toy buzzing in my ass, and began to fuck me while grabbing at my tits. 

“Hold your legs wide open,” he commanded, and I obeyed.

Fucking me hard and rough I began to climax yet again.  How much more could I take?

“You are a good little slut, I am glad I chose you,” he announced, grabbing my nipple and pulling hard. He was rhythmically fucking me, causing my tits to bounce forward and back in a hard thrust, and I loved every inch of his cock in my pussy.

“You are going to ride my now whore,” he demanded, as he withdrew and lay down.

I slid myself down on his cock, feeling the deepness as the end of his cock hit my cervix.  Lord, the sweet pain of a big cock!

Facing him, he grabbed at my tits and fingered my pussy.  By all miracles, the vibe in my ass stayed put and I was so full I could hardly stand it.  Orgasming freely now, I was astounded at his stamina.  I fucked him, riding his cock for dear life, for what seemed like hours. 

“Turn around so I can see my cock entering that fucking pussy,” he growled with urgency.

I did as instructed and felt his pubic arch hitting my clit like a welcomed friend.  I fucked him hard and soft, rolling my hips and varying my stride.  This pleased him, as he grabbed my hips and forced me down faster or slower.  I was now completely in the subzone, just doing what came naturally to me, fucking myself with this gorgeous man’s cock.

Then, he told me to get on hands and knees.   He entered my pussy in one, hard stroke.  Burying himself ball’s deep in my wet and now aching pussy. I was raw from orgasm, but so tender that every stroke rendered orgasmic bliss.  He removed the toy from my ass and withdrew from my pussy.  I felt, without warning, his cock head at my back door.  He began to work his cock into my ass, slowly and carefully.  I was bucking back against him, feeling the searing pain of his large cock in my ass. I bent myself down to finger my pussy and that encouraged him all the more.  He fucked my ass hard and with purpose, starting to grunt and groan.  Faster, harder I began to cum harder than I had the entire night.  I was cuming from anal sex – that was more than I could handle.

Blue Eyes was holding on to my hips, grunting and fucking me.  Finally, finally he came deep inside my ass with a loud grunt and moan and a slap on my ass that I was sure would welt.  He remained deep inside me, pulsing, as his cum began to seep out of my ass.

He withdrew and wiped off my ass with a towel.  He then asked me to relax and be still on the bed.  He left the room and I heard water running.  He came back and silently picked me up off the bed.  He walked me to the bathroom and placed me in a huge bathtub with warm water and soothing bubbles. 

“You pleased me, more than I could say Little One.  Now, I will take care of you for your service,” he said to me, with a look of affection and release.

He washed my hair, my face, my back.  He had me stand and washed my legs, ass, pussy.  He was tender, loving and slow.  I felt rejuvenated and full of satisfaction.  He allowed me to soak in the tub, bringing me fruit and water.

Then, when I was just about to relax into a state of bliss he asked, “So, Mikayla, are you ready for the rope play now?”

I sat there, and then heard myself say, “fuck yes……….sir.”

Sextrospective (Retrospective or Introspective you choose)

Posted in Greetings and Salutations, Uncategorized with tags , , , on January 13, 2009 by mikayla1

So here we are a brand, new year!  2009 is here.  For many people that means thinking about last year.  What they did or didn’t do.  What goals they had that they didn’t meet or that they surpassed.  How much money they lost in the sinking economy or how much weight they gained.  There are thousands of thoughts that the new year brings to all people.  It is virtually impossible NOT to think about one’s life, actions, ambitions, desires when a new year springs forth.

For me, instead of looking backwards, I choose to look inwards.  Look at the things this past year that made me happy or unhappy.  The events that molded how I look at myself or my marriage.  The things that my children did that brought a cheerful smile to my face – or a moment of total anger.  I think it is important to assess the aspects of life that made personal change, caused personal struggle, or otherwise framed the way we changed.

For me, life took a nasty toll.  I went from a madly sexual, wildly orgasmic, horny and happy housewife who wrote here about all her wild sexcapades to a ‘worried about money, wildly UNHAPPY, sporatically sexual, lonely housewife’ when my hubby lost his job.  As I have revealed previously, we still had sex, but my sexual identity changed.  I submerged into a deep depression – not really paying attention to what was important to me.  This is not going to be this year!  I am going to reconnect with my inner sex goddess, revisit the nasty times of bondage sex (my true love) and start doing sex toy reviews again!  Any girl can do with a little sexy somethings.

My to do list for the first half of the year:

(1) continue to work on body and soul (body at the gym, soul in mediation)

(2) be true to my inner sex goddess

(3) reinvest in my sexual happiness – make it MORE of a priority, not just something I do

(4) fuck my brains out every time…..keep him wanting more like it was in the past

(5) take time to blog – I love blogging, I need to keep it up

(6) get my clitoral hood re-pierced…miss it and it makes me feel sexy

(7) Redo my bedroom to make it ultra sexy

(8) record my fantasies (for my blogging buddies and for myself)

(9) give my hubby the sexual attention he deserves (yes, it can be more)

(10) keep writing my book on sex…has to be done eventually

These are just a few of the ideas I have.  I am really thinking that this list will grow and evolve, but for now this is a way to start.  In the midst of writing this entry, my hubby and I had one hell of a hot night. I plan to record that for my own posterity within the next few days.  Look forward to it, and look forward to 2009!

Happy Horny Holidays

Posted in Greetings and Salutations on December 23, 2008 by mikayla1

Hello once more blogging world!  Looky, looky I have gotten on here twice in one week!  I wanted to take a quick minute between the cookie baking and Christmas wrapping to wish everyone who visits my blog a VERY HAPPY, HORNY and HEALTHY HOLIDAY AND NEW YEAR!

May this next year bring forth new hope, new discoveries and new positions (sexual and otherwise) and may be all be better and truer forms of ourselves!

Much love…

Mikayla

Kinky Kristmas…

Posted in Greetings and Salutations with tags on December 19, 2008 by mikayla1

Hi all.  Boy has life been taking a turn for me.  I have had zero, ziltch time to write in my blog.  I feel like I have dropped off the face of the earth – and I really haven’t.  Life has just taken over.  I do have some good news though – my hubby got a JOB!  We are sooooo thrilled.  It couldn’t be a better job – little travel, great benefits, close to home, family oriented company.  Not too much less money.  It is a joy and a relief!

I have decided to take a semester off from being the naughty professor.  I just feel like I need a serious break.  I have been so busy with grading and teaching and writing and being on thesis committees that I have not had time to breathe.  Breathe.  There is a concept.  *deep breath*  OK, another *deep breath*  I remember now.  Breathing is good.

Sometimes I think that life is not at all what we make of it, but what is forced upon us.  Oh sure, we do make our own commitments and we make ourselves crazy with overscheduling and overdoing.  I am a total OCD, do it all, have to be perfect – bake, cook, clean, teach, work, be a Mommy AND a sex goddess type person – I can’t do it anymore.  I am just…..DONE!  Who does that to me?  I do. Who asks all of this of me?  MILLIONS of people!  Teachers, bosses, children, hubbies – they all have demands, requests, needs, desires.  What about MINE????

So, I need to take myself out of some things.   Just let myself be.  Be what I want.  Read a book.  Go on a walk.  Fuck my husband with reckless abandon that has nothing to do with anything but pleasure.  I miss that.  I miss the times when we would just do that.  Oh yeah, we still have sex.  However, it is not carefree sex.  I miss the ‘fuck on Sunday morning’ sex.  Or the go into the bathroom at the bar – stall fuck.  I miss that.  I want that back.  I will have it back.

I am sure some people will think or say:  but Mikayla, YOU had these kids, YOU have these debts, YOU chose this line of work.  Yes, it is true.  I did.  However, I think that we as a people in general get so caught up in the when, where, why that we forget the who – the YOU – of life.  That is how I feel.  I am totally, 100% a winter depressive person.  I hate being stuck in my house all damn winter.  I need more.  I feel the need to cleanse, to be cleanses in the physical as well as emotional sense.

I know I am rambling here.  Sometimes I just need to get out the words that I think and the things that I feel and just say them.  Out into the blogging universe – say them.  Have someone say to themselves as they read the words on the screen:  yes, I agree.  I get you.  You are saying what I am thinking.  It is comforting to think that.

So, you may be seeing more of me here.  You may hear soon how I seduced my husband and we fucked in front of the Christmas tree.  You may hear how I went out in my backyard and jumped into the snow naked just to do it.  You may hear how I watched nothing but drama movies on Lifetime all day just to do it.  You will hear, cause I am gonna write about it.  Perhaps through my rambling insanity trying to get sane – or saner – someone else will be inspired to take their life back too.  Hope. Pray.  Live.  BREATHE!