Have you ever had a conversation with someone that is totally, completely, unihibitedly erotic? The kind of conversation that leaves you wet and weak in the knees – or hard as a teenager seeing Playboy for the first time? For me, the mind fuck is almost as good…..almost……as the real, flesh and cock version.
Recently I have acquired a new friend. This friend is very interesting to me. “He” is intelligent beyond intelligent, erotic, creative, intense. He is a wonderful person to talk to. Am I interested in having a sexual relationship with him – NO. I am happily married and have a fantastic sex life. However, sometimes a gal needs a little ‘cerebral stimulation of the erotic kind.
I am sure many of us have had those experiences where we have had cyber sex. You know, that whole:
First, I am gonna suck your cock, then I am gonna lick up to your mouth
Oh, then what will you do to me?
Then I will jump on your cock and ride you with reckless abandon until we both climax in a sweaty heap….
This is not this kind of cyber-relationship. This relationship is somehow….more erotic. There is no direct conversation regarding sex. I don’t doubt for a moment that He has no dishonorable intentions toward me, or that he wants anything more from me than friendship. I have no reason to think that this would become anything more than what it is…..a pleasant diversion from my day by having playful and intelligent conversations…..
But…..well, there is the thing, right…there is always a but….
Where is it going? Is it just a big mind fuck….or, more of a sign that I need more sexual stimulation. How does He feel about it? Is it scary for him? Exciting? Erotic? Sexually stimulating?
I don’t want to scare Him off, but I have to work this through my mind. That, my blogging buds, is where you come in….I need to vent…a place to vent….so that is what I will do….
Am I loosing my sensible mind?
