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Personal Whore….

Posted in Ponderings.... with tags , , , , , on August 29, 2008 by mikayla1

As many of you know, I have been in a real funk.  I am sorry for that…..sorry in that I began downtrodden so much that I forgot my own personal rule:  sex is a commitment, sex is a necessity, sex is stress relief and sex is expected in a relationship.  I allowed myself to get sucked down into the vortex of depression and forgot to enjoy sex.  Oh, we have had sex, but it hasn’t been ‘good’ sex….well, not till last night.

Knowing that sex has become a short version of what it should be, I was bound and determined to NOT let it go on any longer.  I mean, sure we have lost a job, but did we loose our pussy or cock?  Did we loose our mouths?  Did we have our sex toys reposesed?  HELL NO!  So, last night I was ready for action…and action is what we had…

I took a nice, long shower.  I shaved every, single nook and cranny of my body from the armpit to the ankle.  I made sure I was super smooth and hairless everywhere that counted.  I used our massaging shower head and a dildo to make myself cum a few times.  Being too eager makes the first orgasm cum to quickly…and I wanted it to be a nice, long session.

I put on a new corset that I had bought before the ‘incident’ and felt super sexy in it.  It is a standard, lace up the back, cleavage busting out corset with black lace with pink hearts (abstract hearts) on it.  It has a matching thong and garters.  I put on the whole 9 yards, even some make-up, but I left my hair wet.  I lit candles and then called my hubby into the bedroom where I was perched, on my knees on the bed.  I had put on my eternity collar (that I admittedly have not worn in a long, long time) and when my hubby saw me, and hte room, and the toys, and me….he got an instant boner.  I motioned for him to come to the edge of the bed and when he got there I immediately started taking off his shirt.  Kissing down his chest, his ears (he loves that) and neck.  I moved closer to him so he could touch me if he wanted…and he wanted. 

His hands quickly found my tits and started rubbing and groping them.  I love the nipple rubbing and the pulling of my nipples.  I moaned quietly in his ear and took a little nibble.  My tits were practically out of the corset, but still properly restrained enough.  The tight corset holding me in - just barely - and adding that sexy tightness that I love so much.  My pussy was soooo wet already, and I just wanted him to bury his cock inside me…but not yet.  I am a greedy, greedy whore and I wanted it all.

I motioned for him to get up on the bed, he took down his jeans, revealing a large hard on under his boxers.  He now on his knees on the bed, I slunk down and took the hem of his boxers in my mouth and skillfully (yes, I believe this is a skill) took them down with only my mouth, while looking right into his eyes.  His cock sprang forth with strength and enthusiasm and I licked the tip of it before going back up to my knees to kiss him hard and fast on the mouth.  Our tongues doing that suggestive dance indicating exactly what we wanted to do to the other’s sacred spaces.

His cock was pressing against my thigh, so one quick adjustment and it was resting happily on my crotch.  I pulled myself closer to him and spread my legs a bit so his cock could brush against my barely covered snatch.  He took the bait and began to thrust against me - giving me just the slightest thrill and ache in my pulsating pussy.

He was quickly becoming extremely aroused, and pushed me back on the bed, taking my thong off in the quickest of motions, and spreading my legs wide. 

“oh baby, you are super smooth for me.  I am going to suck and pound that pussy good,” he said when he felt the smoothness that I purposely prepared for him.

This is the position I love - lying back with my legs spread apart, holding my ankles so my lover can see every inch of my private space, admiring, and desiring to be nestled in between my folds.  Love it.  Makes me feel like such a personal whore!

Now I am in sub mode.  Now I am no longer in control, I have relinguished that right and put myself in sex slave mode.  I am a willing and obedient whore - willingly waiting for his next move.  His move was to take a finger and start rubbing my clit while holding my pussy open wide.  I came.  God help me, I came instantly.  Oh how I missed this.  What the fuck is wrong with me that I would go THIS long without this bliss?????

That was all he needed in encouragement and he brought his cock to my waiting mouth.  Still moaning from the intensity of the orgasm I began to take his cock in my mouth.  Using just my tongue and mouth to bring him down my throat.  I took one hand and grabbed his balls, took the other and thrust him deep into my throat.  The groan he elicited was worth the effort - and it really was not too much effort, I have mad oral sex skills.

Fucking my mouth hard, while grabbing my tits and giving me an occassional, complimentary pussy grope was making me soooo hot.  I wanted his cock in my pussy and I wanted it now.  The need was urgent, but he had other plans.  Turning himself around, cock still in my mouth, he thrust my legs back and began to fuck my pussy with his mouth and fingers.  I came again.  I was gushing like a naive bride.

In the midst of my orgasmic bliss he had gotten a toy and I felt the cold thrill of one of my glass dildos entering my very wet pussy.  I love when he combines glass with oral - there is nothing like the smooth sensation of glass combined with the warm wetness of a skilled tongue!  Oh mamma!  He took himself out of my mouth and slid down between my legs, motioning me to spread my legs up and back.  I grabbed my thighs, took a deep breath and prepared.  My skilled hubby took that dildo and fucked me hard while playing tongue tag with my engorged clit until I began to squirt and gush in G-spot oragsms that left me shaking and weak.  Now he was ready to fuck me.

Lying on the bed, I could barely get up the strength to plop down on his rod - but I did.  Wet and ready I slid down on his cock as he sighed and commented on the tightness of my pussy around him.  I was still contracting and gushing and the sensation was wickedly fantastic.  I bounced up and down and was grinding my pussy hard against him.  I quickly began to cum AGAIN and my contractions started sending him into pre-orgasm mode.  He took my hips and guided my movements, taking time to place my bullet between my clit and his pubic arch.  I was in fucking heaven!  Orgasm after orgasm after orgasm until finally he gave it up and filled me with his hot, sticky cum!

I was in complete bliss…completely satisfied and just plain releived.  I have to reiterate, sex IS stress relief, sex IS fun, sex IS expected and I will neve forsake sex again!  Sex is free - and FUCKING FANTASTIC!!!! Don’t forget the sex….go have sex…RIGHT NOW……I am gonna have sex again….RIGHT NOW.

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Receptacle For Your Love…

Posted in Ponderings.... with tags , , , , on July 19, 2008 by mikayla1

Slowly we embrace.  It is heated and passionate.  Quick kiss.  Random grope.  Nipples hard.  Cock coming alive.  Now is not the time.  Longing looks and firey eyes saying without words what we both know we want and need.  We must wait….wait until night.  Wait until we can be alone.  Wait until we can combine into one fluid form - two bodies connected with a heated purpose.

Daily tasks seem extra mundane - lengthly beyond words.  TIme stands still and each tick of the clock seems longer than the next.  We sustain the sexual energy through naughty phone calls, emails and erotic text messages.  

“I need you…..I want you…..I love you……”

“I want to suck your cock, lick your nipples, fuck you hard……”

Dirty thoughts fill our minds.  Unsuspecting strangers make small talk with us oblivious to the random kinky thoughts that float in and out of our minds throughout the day.

Dinner dishes can wait, laundry can be folded tomorrow.  Baths done, children asleep - the time is now.

Meeting in the bedroom - naked bodies meet in the middle.  Flesh hot and flushed.  You touch my face with tenderness but kiss me with excited need.  Your cock pushes against my thigh - a symbol of your lust.  Wetness between my legs and the sweet smell of sex fills the air.  Touching your ear, pulling you closer as your hand reaches down, down into my wetness.  Sucking in your tongue - and emmulating another action.  Moving down to your hardness - and giving it attention in the most sacred way. 

Moving above your face - hands at my hips - spreading me wide.  A reverse expression of each other’s need.  My mouth on your cock - your mouth on my pussy - a fluid electric cycle of sexual energy.  Moving, grinding, moaning.

‘You taste so good, mmmmmmm, I  have waited all day.’ 

Ready to cum I explode in his mouth - feeling the squirt and relief.  Sitting up straight - still holding your cock - I am unable to do anything but shudder in pleasure.  Coming down from the high, I want you more than ever.  I crawl to your cock and slide down on you slowly.  Locking eyes - the heat between us rises.  Hands on my hipsas I claw at  your chest.  Moving to the sound of our heartbeats.  One single expression of erotic envisonment.  You fill me completely - soul and body - and your need to release is growing near.

‘please wait….give me more…..don’t…..I beg……’

You try to hold on.  More time for pleasure.  I am nearing the pinnacle and soon explode in a rush, my pussy sucking you in and milking you fast…

‘I can’t wait…I have to cum now….oh fuuuckkkk…..’

Clutching and grabbing - clawing and kneading.  I feel you inside - the explosion within. We unite in our pleasure, feeling the juices mingle and the hotness between us.     We have become one once again and I am truly a receptacle for your love…..

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Dirty Girl

Posted in Ponderings.... with tags , , , , , , on June 25, 2008 by mikayla1

Oh, I am such a dirty, dirty girl.  My hubby has been gone for a whole week.  He came home late last Friday night.  Saturday night he had plans with his buddy, Sunday night I had plans with the girls, and Monday our youngest son was up late with a little cold.  What does all this mean?  No chance for REAL sex. We had a quickie on Saturday, but I wanted “THE” sex.  THe sex that suggests how much he missed being in me while he was away, the sex that beats all other kinds of sex. The sex that confirms how much he needs, wants and desires me.  That sex.

So, here we are on Wednesday - did we have THE sex yet?  Inquiring minds want to know.

YES, YES, holy crap YES!

Last night it happend and I was a very, very dirty girl.  I knew that it was heading that direction first thing in the morning when I got out of bed to go to the gym and my hubby rolled over and grabbed my left breast.  He never wakes up when I leave, but in his half stuper he was coherent enough to give me a little tweak…

“Time for that later,”  I whisper to him softly. 

Then off I went.  When I returned I went immediately to the shower. I was smelly and sweaty and just wanted to wash my hair.  I heard the door open and looked to see if it was my son or the dog.  It was my hubby, who peaked in on me.

“Damn, I can’t wait to touch that body tonight, make sure you shave everywhere,” he said while grabbing my breast again!

Now I am really horny and ready and I have the whole day to wait.  I sent him some very suggestive e-mail messages, a few quick phone calls to tell him what I want to do TO him, and a looonng evening later and we were both ready for the boys to go to bed - and they did, EARLY!

In the bedroom, we are both eager and ready to fuck and be fucked. 

“Get naked, get on the bed, and get ready for me,” he says while heading toward the bathroom.

I know that this means masturbate with my fingers or a toy - so I decide on my large, realistic dildo and a bullet.  I know that the sight of me fucking myself with the dildo will get him instantly hard, and I feel like a dirty girl.  I start slowly, already wet from the anticipation.  Working myself good with the dildo, slowly buildig up to my orgasm.  In comes my hubby, he slides in next to me and takes the dildo from my hand, whispering,

“oh you have to do better than that baby, let me make you cum.”

So on he goes, thrusting in and out and my bullet on my clit.  I love it when he plays with our toys with me.  It is so totally arousing to know that he is watching me, peering at my expressions, evaluating my body movements.  It doesn’t take but a few moments for me to be writhing on the bed, trying to stiffle my screams.  Once I came, he takes out the dildo and brings it to my mouth,

“you are a dirty girl, lick your juices off that cock.”

Now I am convinced that this session is gonna be the death of me.  He rarely speaks this dirty to me, and I think in all our years of sex, he has only done this specific activity once or twice.  I was soooo turned on I could barely stand it.

He watches me taste myself and then takes the dildo from my hand.  He gets on top of me and enters my mouth with his cock.  Large, hard, throbbing.  I am eager to take it, I am masterfully sucking, licking and tonguing him and he is moaning and groaning and applauding my effort with his movements and words.  I love it when I get feedback and I love it when HE loves what I am doing.  He fucks my mouth for what seemed like forever in a second….I so love doing it that it could never be enough.  He withdraws and smiles, giving me instructions,

“spread those legs and raise that ass, I am gonna fuck you harder than you have been fucked in years….”

I do as I am told and he enters me in one, fluid thrust.  I am a bit confused now, but happily so.  He doesn’t usually go this quickly to sex when we have been apart a while.  I am not complaining, I am just holding my legs apart and enjoying the warmness that we are making and the sensations of him inside me.  It doesn’t take long and I am cumming and writhing and clenching…delicious tightness takes over and I feel my hubby bury himself deep within me, shooting that well deserved hotness into me. 

He takes a moment to compose himself, shivering and sweating.  He withdraws his cock and brings it once again to my mouth,

“now suck your juices from this cock, dirty girl,” he says and sticks it in my mouth.

Again, I do as I am told and I am loving the new ‘take charge’ man hovering above me.  I feel my hubby getting harder.  He never truly went down, which makes going back up a little easier.  I lick and sroke and such and tongue until he is hard once again.  His cum is oozing out of me, like a sweet river of love.  My hubby reaches down and grabs my pussy lips and pulls gently.  I am still on the verge of another orgasm and that is about to do it. 

Once hard enough for his liking, he turns me over to my stomach, and pulls me to the end of the bed.

“we will have to wash the sheets, cause you are gonna gush all over!”

I am ready for whatever he has in store for me, and I perch my ass up as far as I can and he thrusts his cock into my very wet pussy once more.  He is going slowly, purposefully.  He grabs the lube that is on the bed and I feel something going into my ass.  I love DP and so does he, but I didn’t even know he had a toy around.

“dirty girl, do you want me in your ass or a vibrator,” he asks me by bending to my ear?

“you, please,” I respond breathlessly.

He pulls out of my pussy and starts to slowly, slowly stick his cock into my ass.  I am feeling unbelievably horny.  I love anal sex.  He reaches down and gives me one of my bigger vibrators to work into my own pussy,

“you can take that in your pussy, dirty girl, while I fuck your ass.”

That statement puts me over the edge quickly, and I cum without even getting the vibe in!  I take a second then start to work it in.  I no sooner get it in and I start to orgasm again…I can feel the anal orgasm working and my hubby, knowing me well, starts to thrust faster and a little deeper. 

“oh damn, I am gonna cum hard baby,”  I say to him, breathlessly.

That about does it for him. He continues to thrust, I am cumming liek mad, I feel my G-spot going and he is holding off….panting, panting…moaning….groaning….then….gush….wetness all down my legs and I am shaking as hard as I have ever shaken.  He explodes into me and cries out,

“ooohhh fuccckkkkkkk yeahhhhhh!”

We are both done, spent, completely sated.  Done.  Finito. 

He looks at me after withdrawing and asks,

“so, my dirty girl, is THAT the kind of sex you were talking about in your blog?”

“why yes, I do believe it was!  I love you!,” I respond, heaving and exhausted.

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Sex on the Brain…

Posted in Ponderings.... with tags , , , , , on June 21, 2008 by mikayla1

Yes, it is true, I have SEX ON THE BRAIN!  Why, why do you ask?  Well, my hubby has been gone ALLLLLL week.  He was supposed to return yesterday afternoon, but he got stuck at the friggin’ airport and didn’t make it home until 12:00 am!  Now, I am willing to sacrifice many things for sex, but last night I was too damn tired to even sacrifice sleep for it!  Plus, he was in a piss-poor mood, and I wasn’t gonna get the quality fucking that I want.

What do I mean by quality fucking?  Well, I have had a hankerin’ for that ‘take me now’ experience.  I almost had it before my hubby left for his trip, when he threw my up against the bed and took me doggy style.  It was heavenly being taken in that manner.  However, what I am looking for is a more complete package.  I want the ‘you are GONNA do what I TELL you to do’ experience.  I want the ‘YOU are my SEX PUPPET’ experience.  I want the NEED to be animalistic and for me to be the subject of his desire.  Does that make sense?

I realize that some people would kill just to have sex on a regular basis, and it is probably not fair for me to be complaining (not really complaining) but desiring a different type of sex.  Couples have distinct ways they have sex.  Don’t know what I mean, let me demonstrate:

(Couple A - safe sex) - These couples are safety addicts.  Condoms, dental dams, good hygiene all the way.  Never anal, no deep kissing - just the parts mingling.  Safe sex.

(Couple B - shy sex) - The shy sex couples are the ones who want to have sex, but are embarrassed.  They always have the lights off, never come above the sheets (sort of Amish-like), never actually SEE the other person.  They have a few quick movements and it is over.

(Couple C - on the sly sex) - Couples who have sex on the sly are the ones who start out doing something else, then end up having sex.  Massages for example.  They both WANT sex, but neither will initiate, so one person ends up suggesting a massage.  It never varies, and it always leads to sex.

(Couple D - anniversary sex) - These couples save sex for the special occassions.  Anniversaries, birthdays and New Year’s eve.  There is usually alcohol involved and it is a ‘treat’ to be jumping in the sack.

(Couple E - vanilla sex) - The Vanilla category has many variables.  What is basically means is this couple does the same thing, over and over. Oral for him followed by oral for her followed by a little touching, then sex.  Vanilla, no toppings.

(Couple F - sprinkle sex) - Sprinkle sex is basically vanilla sex with sprinkles.  This means, the sex is pretty much the same, but occassionally there is a sprinkling of anal sex or a different position. 

(Couple G - buffet sex) - Couples in the buffet line are at least trying different things. They are experimenting with positions, porn, toys and trying to do something they haven’t done before. 

So, when I say that I want a different kind of sex, I just mean that I am looking for a variation on our particular theme.  We have pretty good sex - and as I said, I shouldn’t complain.  However, when it has been a long time since we have had sex (due to out of town trips or my monthly cycle) then I want and crave that animalistic, you must do me now sex!  I wonder, is it unfair of me to place my own subconscious (or very conscious) predeterminations on what we will do in bed?  Is it fair that if I don’t get the kind of sex I want, I will be pouty and upset?  I am not sure.  I do know this, it is unfortunate that the kind of sex to which I refer can not be accomplished by MY actions, only his.  I can’t TELL him this is what I want, he has to just KNOW it and do it.   Ugghh, what a position to be in?  Well, we will see what happens tonight.  One thing is for sure, it WILL be SEX!

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